It kills me that sometimes it happens that I am screaming about something inside my head , but outside my head I have to plat it cool.
Today I remembered something ,,, it is not that I forgot it , but it today it came crashing back into my memory , and I could not help to stop that flood of nostalgia.
I miss *************** ,,,, I cant retrieve that stage of my life , I cant fix it , I cant make things end on different terms , I cant talk about it again , I have already said all what I want to say ... I feel so helpless ,,,, so helpless and sometimes I think that fate might play a game for me but ....
this is a bad post , I am gonna leave it as it is