Run for your innocence

A friend of mine once said: Bad things happen and you push them away, and say to yourself: Now things are gonna be better. But after a while you realize that life IS LIKE THAT and it takes a lot from you to accept this.

Today an incident happened in my apartment and I sat there for a while praying to God to make my mind stop repeating the bad words that were said to me. I just wanted the words to lose their echo , to sound normal and so they lose there power to take away any part of my inner peace.

I am growing up , I am realizing this as it happens and I know that I cant be everybody's pet...Some people are not gonna like me , some people are gonna try to hurt me and I should be able to play cool , take the high road and act mature or I will get my inner power canalized in the tiny stupid canals of daily bickering and then when my big moment comes I will find that I am no longer the special person I used to be , and I will find that I ran out of power and creativity.

I dont want to act like a prophet or a martyr , I am just willing to put aside all the ''earthy issues'' and focus ,,, EYES ON THE PRIZE,,, eyes on the great goals of my life and my existence and let the earthy people win their tiny battles, I dont mind losing ...

I love this Do3aa

عن ابن عباس رضي الله عنهما قال: كان النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم يدعو: رب أعني ولا تعن علي، وانصرني ولا تنصر علي، وامكر لي ولا تمكر علي، واهدني ويسر لي الهدى، وانصرني على من بغى علي، اللهم اجعلني لك شاكرا، لك ذاكرا، لك راهبا، مطواعا إليك مخبتا أو منيبا، رب تقبل توبتي، واغسل حوبتي، وأجب دعوتي، وثبت حجتي، واهد قلبي، وسدد لساني، واسلل سخيمة قلبي. والحديث في سنن الترمذي.

ومعنى واسلل سخيمة قلبي: أي غشه وغله وحقده وحسده ونحوها بما ينشأ من الصدر ويسكن في القلب من مساوئ الأخلاق.